But I had to make a difficult decision tonight. My dear friend Kristin's wedding is tomorrow. I have been planning on going no matter what. Nothing could stand in my way. This is her day, her celebration, how could I miss it? But then I got sick for the entire week. And it hasn't gotten better. I am always exhausted and everything else associated with illness. The exhaustion is the main factor in this scenario though. No one from Lynchburg (that I know of, I've tried to contact several people about it) are driving down tomorrow and coming back either that night after the wedding or Sunday morning. I would have been fine with either circumstance. But no one is. So I was going to make the trip alone. But since I have not been feeling better this didn't seem like a good idea. Pair that with rain on the forecast and me having absolutely no idea where I'm going... nobody thought this was a good idea. My parents and Matt strongly were opposed to the idea afraid I would crash the car somewhere in my exhaustion. I was determined. I made all my plans and got everything ready in preparation today. And now when it comes down to it, I just don't think I can do it. And that makes me so incredibly sad. And I feel like I'm letting Kristin down. Now I know she will have about 1000000000000000 other things on her mind tomorrow, but I still feel bad. Of course, I would get sick this week.
Sigh. So I will be spending yet another day at home and most likely in bed for most of it. I might venture out to the couch for awhile for a change of scenery.
So I am sad. This will be a wonderful weekend in that Kristin and Kyle will be united in marriage. That is so amazing and I am so happy for them. But it will be so sad for me that I am missing it. I am missing so many of my friends' weddings in Michigan, but I have to also miss Kristin's who is near enough for the trip. It is a five hour drive down there... and then I would leave after the reception and drive back. I just don't think I could do it. I am a lousy person.
I hope it feels better tomorrow.