I'm quickly discovering that my life (the next 10 years at least) is probably going to be nothing like I've been planning or imagining. Funny how God works. I've already had to give up on a few "dreams", more like post poned them. I have always been a planner and I thought I knew how I wanted life to pan out. Well, we'll see how the next two years go. That will determine a lot. Actually, the next six months will determine a lot. Just keep praying generally for Matt and I. I just have to trust trust trust God. Slowly I'm beginning to take things one day at a time. That way I won't be disappointed when things turn out differently than I had hoped. Trust trust trust.

I started reading Dante's The Inferno around midnight last night until I dozed off. I'm going to finish it tonight. It's been a quick and interesting read. I didn't really grasp the irony when I bought Paradise Lost and The Inferno at the same time. One dealing with perfection, the garden of Eden. And one dealing with the many layers of hell. Both good and I highly recommend them to the poetical.

I cooked dinner tonight. I'm slowly starting to try new recipes. I found a bunch of pork recipes I decided to try since we pretty much eat chicken chicken chicken with some beef every once in awhile. If you know me well, you know I have hated pork since I was... As long as I can remember. I always thought this was an irrational dislike that I dreamed out of nowhere having no recollection of ever having eaten pork before. I like bacon, ham, and sausage, just not pork chops or other pork varieties. Well, I decided to give it a try. It turns out, it isn't an irrational dislike! I do NOT like pork. We have two pieces of the onion naked pork chops I made tonight and I have 4 pieces of pork in the freezer for the other recipes I found! I'll suck it up and eat those pieces, but I don't think pork will appear on the grocery list in the near future. It was a good experiment though. Guess it's back to finding interesting ways to make chicken!

Matt and I talked about houses today. We aren't going to buy one until he gets a salaried job working as a psychologist. This will be post Masters for him. Once he gets a more permanent job it'll just make more sense to buy a house. It could very easily be in Lynchburg in a few years. But until we know, we won't go buying a starter house and trying to sell it again. I can wait. I can be patient. And those extra years mean we can save more and buy a bigger house than we originally would otherwise. So I guess it's a good plan. I told Matt that when he applies for jobs all over the country post Masters then it will be his decision which job to take and where. I'll let him choose because he'll be the one working for the next 50 years. I can raise a family anywhere. I know, it all sounds good. I'm preparing myself for some horrible little hick town in some southern hot state. That way if we stay in Lynchburg it won't seem so bad. Acceptable states to me are Michigan, Illinois, Pennsylvania, most of the New England states (not Vermont or New Hampshire), Colorado, California, Oregon, Washington, Tennessee, the Carolinas, Georgia, or Virginia. That gives him plenty to choose from I think. I hope we end up somewhere with a good long autumn and winter. I prefer cooler weather.

My birthday is in three weeks and I have no idea what I want. Honestly, I want a little puppy. Like a brown and grey pomeranian. Not one of those light colored ones though. Matt would probably let me get one if we we're allowed. I don't think we would be, not if we're not allowed a second cat. But I would go for walks all the time with a little puppy. I'd want a small one too. We'll have bigger dogs layer. Maybe next year if we move I can get a puppy. Probably not. I don't need another pet. I can wait for baby time. I just don't know what I want this birthday! Probably just books. Or a new job. That would be the best birthday present! Something that will make enough to pay for Matt's grad school or a job at Liberty that would cancel it out. Just keep praying!

Speaking of babies, two of my friends had babies recently. They are beautiful! I admit I'm very jealous. But so happy for them!

Time to read the last chunk of The Inferno. I have about three layers of hell to go through with Dante. What a nightmare.