Downtime is not good for me apparently! I've been doing a lot of thinking and have decided that some things need to be changed in my life. Hopefully it will all end up wonderfully. I'll keep you posted as the changes progress. If you know me, then you should know that I'm not a huge fan of change.

I'm making myself eat smaller portions. So is my husband. So we have a lot of leftovers right now. I'm going to eat some leftover lemon chicken and rice I made earlier this week for dinner! My stomach is excited. I did some exercises this morning when I woke up and am excited to get gym memberships. It will have to wait until school starts and my paychecks start up again, but it will be a good change in our lives. I hope to make it a regular part of my schedule. Probably I'll go straight to the gym after work. Matt likes going in the morning though, so we might never go together. Oh well, the joys of having two cars.

I began Paradise Lost today. It's very interesting. It kind of makes me relate to Satan, which is sad, but I think more true than most of us care to admit. He has a lot in common with humanity, which is why he is a fallen angel and will never dethrone God. And to think, he doesn't even realize it. It makes me sad to realize how like Satan I am. But it's also humbling. No matter how much I grow spiritually, I'll always have sin. Sometimes I need a reminder because I get all righteous feeling when I've done my devotions and prayed everyday for a while. Or something like that. But I'll always have sin. And there will always be more to learn. I can just keep striving to become more like God and less like myself, less like Satan. It's too bad Satan can't change his mind and repent. Even if he could, I doubt he ever would. Pride is a sad and terrible thing.

My husband brought me home a beautiful summery bouquet of flowers and a decorative bamboo plant! I'm weird, I know, but I always admired the bamboo plants at the store. So he bought me one. What a good husband.

Quarter to five. I could eat an early dinner. Matt's playing videogames so I might watch a movie in our room or something. With his computer being broken it makes sharing the TV difficult. Oh well. We'll replace his computer soon.