I have decided that I hate selfishness. I am going to try to not be selfish any longer. It is a problem.

I cut Matthew's hair today for the first time. It took awhile for me to figure it all out and get it all even, but it turned out pretty good. I think he's pleased. I'm glad we got that out of the way. Now we won't have to spend 15 dollars every other month for haircuts for him. And I can wait about every 6 months to have mine cut. So that's not a part of our budget we'll have to worry about.

Wedding plans are going well. Super well. We just bought the bridesmaid dresses on Thursday. My Abby called and was wearing the dress! She had found it in all sizes at the store back home. So she put some on hold and my mom ran out and bought them. We should be getting them in the mail on Tuesday so the girls down here can try them on. I hope they're as cute as I think they are. If so, I have found the perfect bridesmaid dresses. I couldn't be happier. Quite literally.

I splurged and bought a Coach purse. It was discounted a lot so it was about 200$ less than it normally would be. And it was a limited edition. The body style is a little older and it was the one I really wanted. I was disappointed when they stopped carrying it online. But I found one and for a great price. So I snagged it. It should be here on Tuesday also. That will be quite the mail day for me! I cannot wait. I love my slingpack my parents got me... but this purse is pretty much the most amazing thing ever.

I sound super materialistic.

Ok, for my heart .

I have had a very lonely year. And I admit, it is mostly my own fault. I have secluded myself like a hermit. And I kinda like it actually. But it does have it's lonely moments. I just miss last year so much. Last year was pretty much all I could ever ask for. But I can't look back. I can only look forward.

I have been trying to figure out what exactly is wrong with me. I feel empty. I asked God to show me how to be full. I've been trying to find something worthwhile to pour my time into. I love working at Family Life Services this semester. I wish I could pour more of my time into that. This may sound superficial, but maybe I'll still see about volunteering at Petsmart with the Humane Society cats. I think it would be good for me to play with those kitties. I would make them a little more lovable and they would make me feel loved also. Sounds stupid, I know. But ya know.

Ok, well Matt wants his internet connection back. So I suppose this is goodbye for now.

Loves.