I began my new job at J. Crew tonight. I think I'm gonna like it there. It'll be a good first fulltime job. It seems like pretty easy work. I was nervous at first. When I sat in on an order I was so lost. But when it was slowly explained to me step by step... it's not really so bad. I'm actually excited! And today was only the first day. But next week when I'll be nesting, and getting ready to go off into the communications world on my own, I should be all set!

So what is my job exactly? Well, I'm a cliet specialist for J. Crew. Lynchburg, VA houses the Service Excellence Center, or the call center. In every J. Crew store there is a red phone in case the item the customer wishes to purchase in unavailable at that particular branch. They call in to us in Lynchburg and we send them their purchase right away. We also handle questions and that sort as well. So a pretty easy job. I'm a pretty personable person... and it's even better that I'm on the phone and not in person. I'm a shy girl so phone transactions should be easier than having to deal with issues face to face. So I pretty much get to sit in my little cubicle all day, wearing pretty much whatever I want, asnwering phones, and shopping for myself. :) Not a bad set up. And the pay and benefits are GREAT! I couldn't have asked for a better summer job, quite honestly.

I plan on staying there until I move away from Lynchburg for good. It's too good of money to pass up. And it's a great atmosphere. As long as scheduling doesn't coincide with my class schedule and internship and they allow me to go home for holidays... we should be all set! And I've already mentioned all of the above to my supervisors and they said it should be no problem. So pretty much I have the most amazing job ever!

I'm so thankful for this. God really blessed me with this job. I was so worried and nervous about it. I didn't think I'd be hired. I find it hard to believe that companies would want me to work for them with so little experience. I don't have much faith in myself. But it can only get better from here!

Also, I've found myself extremely in love lately. Not just because of Jr/Sr (for more on that, go to my previous posting). But the past few months, I guess after Spring Break, I've felt differently towards Matthew. I have loved him since before we were "official", I have the diaries to prove it. And when we first started dating there were the butterflies and the baby love moments which were wonderful. And I've increased in my true love for him as the years have gone by. But this is a new and different feeling. This is an extreme contentment with where we are and where we are going. This is a joy that I have indeed found the one I am going to spend the rest of my life with. This is satisfaction with all of his imperfections and pride in his perfections. This is loving the good times and the bad and embracing them all as a time to grow together. This is knowing. Just knowing. This is love.

That sounds stupid as I read it over again. Because it is no where near what I feel. It doesn't even begin to describe it. I read that and I think, "Did I really just write that?" I can't even express myself. All I can say, is that I am the happiest girl in the world. And this is true. I know some girls out there think they have the best boyfriends, and fiances, and husbands... but this is different. I'm telling you it's different. This is going through the valleys and not quite making it up the mountains yet... but knowing. Just knowing.

Knowing.

I like that.

*sigh*