I'm feeling slightly better emotionally today. I read my Bible for a good long while and prayed about my attitude and job situation. I know this job is a blessing directly from God and it is a pretty good position actually. I just get discouraged when I don't know how to do something or I forget to do something. But it all comes with the learning scale for the job I suppose. I wish I could just fast forward two months or so. Hopefully by them I'll be much more comfortable in my job and I'll have all the basic situations mastered. Tomorrow I'm working my first 12-9 shift. When I left on Friday around 5:15 there was 81 calls in queue. Hopefully it isn't always that busy in the evening! I just know I'll be anxious about getting all my work done. I'll just have to take my time and get all my emails sent while the student is still on the line. Hopefully I get real patient and nice students. That will make my learning period so much better. Pray pray pray! That's what I'll keep doing.
As silly as this is, something really made me feel better today. Matt and I rent movies pretty often. We should really get netflix or something because there's always movies we want but blockbuster doesn't have them available. Anyways, so we rented a couple movies yesterday. Matt, in true fashion, chose a zombie movie. One I had never seen before. It didn't have a happy ending. There was no cure and the few human people left weren't rescued. With that in mind, my fears towards my new job really don't seem that bad! I don't think I would make it very far if there was some kind of zombie outbreak. I would rather just die quickly at the beginning. I'm so glad I don't have to worry about that. Makes my job seem so much more manageable.
I organized some desk stuff today. A lovely picture frame, some trinkets, some hand sanitizer and hand lotion, a pen holder I painted, things like that. Should make my cubicle seem a bit more comfortable. I am excited to decorate it and make it my own personal space. Hopefully it'll put me more at ease.
Well, here we go. The start of my first full week of work. It will be challenging because Matt works until 11:45 PM. So we won't get to see much of each other. But at least we both have this coming weekend off. I'll definitely need some husband time after my first week. Seriously, Matt has been such an encouragement to me through all of this. It definitely helps knowing someone is behind me every step of the way. And even if I were to fail, he'd still love me and support me. Marriage is a wonderful thing.
Going to get some reading in before bed. And then doing another devotional to calm my heart before bed. Hopefully I'll be awake and alert enough for my whole shift tomorrow. 12-9 is a very different schedule that what I'm used to!
Good night and love.
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