Almost birthday time! I just love birthdays! My birthday is also my parents wedding anniversary. And my dad's birthday is the day after mine. Yup, it was a pretty big deal growing up with all of those events bunched into two days, usually right before school started. 

Speaking of school, I've begun planning my lessons. I think it will be a great year. I admit, I've been hoping for a few specific kids in my class, but I know I'll love all my kids. Each child is different and therefore has different things to love about them. So excited to meet the new students entering into the school for the first time. Plus, since I'll be doing extended care in the afternoon I'll still get to spend time with kids in other age groups. I would've missed that if I were just doing my own class this year. 

While I am excited for the coming school year, I'm still sending in applications every week for other job possibilities. I will hate leaving the school, especially if it comes at a rough part of the year when it will be hard for my director to find a replacement on short notice, but I really have to start thinking about Matt and my future and well being. I'm just praying and hoping something turns up sooner rather than later. Still. 

I'm reading Tess of the D'Urbervilles. I read it in high school for a report and hated it. Now I'm enjoying it. I think I understand it much better now than when I was seventeen. Part of me longs for the old times, but of course, it's for all the pleasant portions of it. There were a lot of pressures and uncertainties I'm glad I don't have to deal with today. Modern life is so... convenient! And as I am a generally lazy creature I probably would've died of some terrible malady after marrying poor and having ten children. Sigh. It's probably best I live today in this society and culture. 

I received a birthday check from my grandparents. They are so loving and generous. I don't quite know what to do with it! Part of me just wants to stick it way in our bank accounts, but birthdays are meant to be fun and spoilish. So I might just buy a few girly movies I've been wanting for awhile. When we buy movies now we usually try to buy ones we'll both like. I might buy some new clothes, though I don't really need any. I wish I could buy a new kitten like we originally planned, but the landlord said only one cat. Pooh. Maybe I'll get that gym membership we've been thinking about. I just don't know. I'm kind of glad I've come to the point in my life where I don't know what to buy with birthday money, because everything seems like a waste. I should probably just save it for some new furniture I desperately want. Every little bit counts. 

Still an hour before Matthew gets home. I'll be glad when I have a schedule again, but I'll miss the time I have with him. He'll leave for work before I wake up and I'll get back two hours later than he. Since he works on Saturday and Sunday we'll rarely have an entire day to spend together once school starts up. I guess instead of being lazy I should be proactive with my time off. But I already did my house work this morning, ran to the store, and mailed my dad's birthday card and present. I don't want to just go shopping because I'll end up buying things I don't need. So I'll just wait. 

Wait. wait. wait.