Once again, I find myself discouraged. This time it is because I am a s-personality (on whatever that scale Kristin uses to gauge people is) which means I am sensitive, insecure, and often stepped on. Basically I got my feelings hurt over something that probably isn't worth all the thought I've put into it today. I get like this sometimes, but I'm trying not to focus on it so much as I used to. Just bear in mind when dealing with me, I'm an extremely sensitive person who often over analyzes situations. Oh well. La.

On a similar note. I am reading Isaiah right now and also finished That Hideous Strength a couple days ago. Some quotes I wrote down from each are very applicable.

"And the haughtiness of man shall be humbled, and the lofty pride of men shall be brought low, and the Lord alone will be exalted in that day... Stop regarding man in whose nostrils is breath, for of what account is he?"
Isaiah 2:17,22

"For the Hideous Strength confronts is and it is as in the days when Nimrod built a tower to reach heaven."
Lewis

"Then let us all to prayers."
Lewis

But even still, it is so difficult to remain positive in real life. And yet, it should also be the easiest thing in the world. For looking back on these days years from now, that hideous strength will be nothing to me. I'll hopefully laugh over my childish insecurities.

The past two days I have read The Little Princess. She had such a difficult life (yes, I was moved to tears a few times) and yet she always had her imaginings. She always tried to act just as a good little soldier, or princess, ought. How often am I acting like the princess of God I ought to be? How often do I catch myself living of the world? If I truly am a princess, then there is no excuse for my poor behavior-no matter what the extenuating circumstances. Just like little Sara Crewe.

Sometimes I really feel like... Oh bother, I've forgotten his name. Not Atticus or Dill. Jem! That's it Jem. I feel like Jem, every new book I read is a favorite. No wait, that's Charlie. Either way they both read a lot and enjoyed it immensely. I feel like with each new book I read I must add it to my favorites. Then I remember that the point of favorites is to be specific. Nothing bothers me more than people who list more than five bands, books, movies, etc. as their favorites on facebook etc. If we're all honest, we have to like some things better than others. Anyways, A Little Princess seems to be climbing the list as one of my favorite books. But in all honesty, it probably isn't even in the top 20. It was a nice read though. Now I'm tackling Treasure Island. I'm going through and reading all the books I skipped during my childhood slash high school. I've owned these books since elementary school and because of that I've never read them. Go figure.

I am tired. My kitten is asleep next to me on the bed. I think it's time for me to join her.

Night.