I am very aggravated with the world right now. Humanity in general just really sets me over the edge sometimes. And since I have disabled my comments, I'm going to go ahead and voice all my opinions.

I am part of a facebook group entitled "Fight FOCA". Simple enough. What I don't understand is the extraordinary amount of people who join groups that are entirely opposite of their personal beliefs? This happens in so many groups I join. I disabled my groups awhile back due to this fact, and also because I hardly ever look at my groups anyways. I'm not even sure I know the point of them. I'll probably end up disabling them again. Anyways, point being, who are these people who have so much free time on their hands to comment back against everyone and everything said in the group? Literally, ever other comment is these people and they can't even argue proficiently. They list no facts and attack the group members about their physical appearance and their personal lives, which they know little or nothing about since all they are going by is a small picture icon next to posts and the few things people choose to say in the group. Sure, some people do get aggravated and say some pretty stupid things. I made my post contribution explaining why I believed FOCA and abortion to be wrong and the response was along the lines of "Don't argue, go kill yourself instead. I recommend a shot gun to the mouth." Not the exact wording, but there wasn't anything else in the response except that basic idea. Seriously, people? I admit, I am an extremely sensitive person so I did get upset for a bit. But it makes me so sad to think that these are the voters who are pushing laws and bills through. These are the next generation, because judging by their profile pictures and networks the main mongers can't be out of high school. It makes me so sad to see what the world has come to. How could we have come so far?

And then I remind myself, that it will only keep getting worse as the end draws near. Please let the Lord be preparing His glorious return! But also, this is nothing new. There have always been ignorant, selfish people. Look at Cain. Look at Eve! There have always been disgusting, sinful habits the world has had to deal with. Abortion and Homosexuality certainly aren't new issues brought about by millenials. I doubt our mindset as a population is really that different than 3000 years ago, we just are far more open about it. It makes me so sad to think of the turn America is going to make in the next few years. And it scares me to be living here. I can't help but think that we'll get ours in the end. Well, before the end really. And we deserve it. I deserve it just as much as those group members who bother me so much. But at least I'm prepared for it.

As I've read their postings and their comments throughout the day I've found myself wondering what kind of people they are and what kind of lives they have. I wish I could see their whole profile to get to know them a little bit more. I don't want to be friends with them or anything drastic like that, but I am interested. I find myself building up stories for them. How could they have become so tainted? How could they have come to know so little and so much but have it all mixed up in importance? What could have happened to them in their young lives (they can't have been older than me but I'm guessing 17ish) to have hardened their hearts so? When I weigh the possibilities that cloud my mind I find myself feeling extreme pity for their souls. For their sadness and their loss. And I honestly find myself praying they will find true peace and love. I don't know how as they are so closed off to people, not just Christians, faith, and God, but people in general. But God works in mysterious ways. Maybe they are on the brink of discovering the light and they're just fighting so hard to believe. And we'll never know.

On a different and more cheerful topic, I am sending in an application for two jobs tomorrow. I wouldn't say I feel hopeful about these jobs, but they seem a more of a possibility than the others I've applied for because all the others have preferred a Masters degree. I, of course, have yet to obtain my Masters and am doubtful if I actually ever will. I just don't feel the need any longer to further my education. Back to the topic. Not going into details, this job would be a great position, I know a handful of employees at this location, I like the work setting and the tasks, the company itself would be a joy to work for, and it would be ministry work. So basically, I'm asking you to pray I will hear back about the jobs. I won't be disappointed if I don't hear back (more on this in the next paragraph), but I would like to have a shot at the positions. Then again, I'm torn because I would still hate leaving the preschool. Which brings me to...

Work today was amazing. I really enjoy being in charge of my own classroom. It's a nice feeling knowing I'll be in there for at least three weeks so I have a little say over how things will go and the lesson plans. It has been fun coming up with my own ideas and putting them into action. The kids in the class are all super sweet and well behaved. I had zero problems this morning. Well, the kids didn't want to clean up but what 4-year-old does? I would love having my own class fulltime next year. It looks like it could definitely be a good possibility because a lot of teachers are leaving or thinking about leaving. So that's a very good possibility for me. Decisions decisions.

Speaking of which, I was supposed to draft a letter to the parents telling them a little about myself and a few classroom rules they need to be reminded of. I forgot one of the papers I need with the snack requirements at school so I'll have to do it tomorrow. I hate being forgetful! I rarely leave things at school and today I just thought I wouldn't need my binder at home. Oh well, one more day won't make that much of a difference.

Again, any and all prayers would be appreciated.