This could be a long rambling post. I have a lot of random things on my mind and I'm nannying until late. We're watching a pokemon movie right now. Very entertaining.

I really want a DS, a pink one. But we have so many other things we need to spend our money on first. There are a bunch of fun games I would enjoy. Matthew wants me to buy some games for our PS3, but I can never find something I like. Ugh.

I'm really excited for Jon and Andrea's wedding in June. It will be such a fun week. I'll get to see my friends in Michigan, are my family which will hopefully include new nieces and nephews for me (my sister is adopting a sibling group!), and of course, all the wedding hub bub! Which I love. I'm already shopping for dresses for the rehearsal, the wedding, and our one year anniversary- which is two days after the Winkel wedding. What a great week that will be.

Dracula is fascinating. Absolutely fascinating. When it was first written nothing like it was around. I wish I could come up with a completely original idea. I've always wanted to be an author. Maybe when I'm a stay at home mom I can work on it. Once the kiddles are in school I'll have some free time.

I've been feeling "fat" lately. So I've been working out more often. I have gotten a little lazy the past year. No more. But I am still a size 0 and I wear xs tops. So I'm obviously not fat, but I'm still not satisfied. I compare my body with some other girls I know (who also happen to be at least 2 years younger than me, not the best plan) and wonder how we wear the same size when our body types are so different. I am developing curves though. Preparing for birthing someday I guess. And I have very broad shoulders for my size. I hate them. I feel like linebacker. Or like one of those silver backed gorillas. Of course, I know I am still in pretty good shape and don't have to worry about being "fat", but I'm a girl. This is what girls do.

I have my notice today at work. Just that I won't be back next year. It makes me sad. Every teacher needs to fill out a letter of intent now. I hated checking the "do not intend on returning" box. Oh well. It was a great year at the school. Maybe someday I'll go back to teach. But just not next year.

Emily kitty has been very meowskers lately. We check her food, we check her water, we check her litter box, we throw her pengi and mousies, we snuggle her, we scratch her, we wrestle with her. But she still seems unhappy. She had been staring out the kitchen window a lot so Matthew thought she might want to go outside. So he put on his coat and bundled her in it and took her to look at the ice and snow. She scampered against him and didn't like it one bit. So we're back to square one. Oh well. All we can do is keep loving on her. She seems to get lonely in the early morning when we are first waking up and haven't been playing with her and when we get back from work. Maybe she feels abandoned? It's such a sad meow. But she still comes and snuggles next to us, so she can't be too sad.

I can't believe there's still another hour and a half for nannying. We're running out of things to do. Peter likes to play videogames, computer games, and watch TV. But he's limited in all this so we're running out of things. It's too dark and cold out now so we're stick inside. And he's not hungry so no dinner to make yet. He did all his homework already. He doesn't really like playing or anything like board games etc. I just don't know. Oh well. It's only for one night. And I only stay late every once in awhile. Next time I take a nannying job I'll interview the family a bit better. I prefer the preschool age or infants anyways. Nut I applied for positions too late. There was a great family I considered with four children and the youngest girl was on a peewee cheer squad, but it would pay about $200 less than this job a month. And this is just for one boy. Oh well, it will build my resume.

Alright, I'll go back to actually watching the pokemon movie with Peter. Pokemon, my favorite.