Wow. Yesterday was my 300th post. That's worth noting, I think.

The past few days I've been having some pain in my chest. It's hard to tell exactly where it's coming from but it's off and on throughout the day and hits the worst at night. It feels like the beginning of an anxiety attack but it doesn't usually escalate. It's more of an annoyance than a true pain. Still, warrants some uneasiness. I used to have anxiety attacks regularly my junior year of high school. I haven't felt bogged down or stressed lately so I don't know what would be causing it. I do have a very slight heart murmur but nothing that's ever worried my doctors. I just pray it will cease with time. I really don't want to have to bother with it.

What a lazy few days I've had. I'm starting my third book in three days tonight. I honestly can't imagine beginning my new year any better way. It's been so refreshing. I read obnoxiously anyways, but it's been nice not to have to stop mid sentence to pick up Peter from school or make him some dinner or go outside to play football. I generally read in between jobs one and two and sometimes during nannying if he's watching TV or doing his homework. I admit, when this semester is up I'll miss watching him. He's a good kid. He's helped me understand his age group (second grade) better and I feel more prepared for parenthood someday. First and second grade were always the ages I detested the most. So this job has actually been a huge blessing. Anyways, it's been nice being able to read unhindered for a few days.

I miss cheerleading. I almost signed on as a coach this year at a local high school but knew it wouldn't really work out with my work schedule. I would like to rearrange my schedule next year so I could do it but there just doesn't seem any way. Someday I hope to coach. I already have a few full routines mapped out in my head, I have pages of cheers, and I know exactly how I'd run practices. After being a cheer captain of my squads for 5 years I kind of got used to starting things up. I miss it a lot. It was my best memories of high school. Sigh. Someday. Maybe I could find some school that would allow practices that started at 5. I could swing that. Our practices sometimes started late, but people weren't happy about it. And if it's not a Varsity squad then the girls couldn't drive themselves to practice and parents don't like that either. Sigh. If only the world revolved around my personal schedule. *wink* Until then I must content myself prancing around our house to jock jams annoying the stuffing out of Matt. There is a gym for pee wee cheerleading (and football and soccer and just about everything else) that could be a possibility. They practice in the evenings and it would be a lot of fun. But mounts and jumps wouldn't be as good and I would really want to push the girls and see progress. And first and second graders just can't do all the tricky stuff yet. It's a thought though. They would be awfully cute.

It's 6. Time to start some dinner for my hungry husband.