So much can happen in a few hours. Actually, in my case it was a matter of minutes. One minute I am having a wonderful day. I am done nannying for the rest of week and I am having a great time teaching my class this week. I am generally happy. Then... Oh then... It's like the end of the world is upon me and I have no one to talk to. Long story short, all the little things suddenly seemed like death to me and I swear I was bipolar for about half an hour. I stormed into the house and declared that I had to talk to Matt. I plopped on the couch and insisted that he turn off his videogame immediately. I promptly spewed out all my poppy feelings and woes of the world, burst into tears, and felt like I was failing at life. Yes, I am quite dramatic at times but that's nothing new. I haven't had a good cry for quite a long time, so this was actually very refreshing in hindsight. After a few snuggles from the husband and the kitten, I was ready to start feeling happy again. We calmly talked through everything I thought was such a big deal and when I was calm of course it seemed ridiculous. I laughed at myself and we went for a nice long walk around our beautiful neighborhood. We'll probably be making a lot more walks in the days to come. Good for conversation and probably healthy for us as long as we make sure to walk for at least 20 minutes. Thankfully we have a great neighborhood with sidewalks and crosswalks.

We then had a delicious dinner complete with smoothies. We watched some Gilmore Girls and everything was again right with the world. I am such a baby sometimes. I know I am still very immature, but I think I'm slowly making progress. I'm still getting used to this whole living independently of my parents thing. I'm not used to it or working full time. Thankfully, I have a wonderful husband and wonderful jobs to help me get acclimated. I have a feeling it will only get better and brighter from here on out. But, I know I need some more maturity before I'm ready for parenthood. Definitely. We'll see where I'm at next summer. Possibly by then it will be baby time! Until then, I have a wonderful husband whom I love and I am just so blessed! Honestly, my life is quite amazing, I don't know how I got here but it's been wonderful.

Good night. Emphasis on good.