I have been in a greatly sad state lately. I have recently come to terms with the fact that I have an anger problem. I have tried and tried and tried to work things out with some of my nearest and dearest friends. I've begun feeling the loss of my "home" since I will never go home to live there again and it is very likely that my parents will no longer be living there much longer either. I'm doing horribly in my classes this semester due to laziness and non-interest. I have recently begun to doubt my future. And I have begun lashing out my fiance for every little thing that isn't even his fault. All of this thrown into one giant lump... I am a very sad little girl.

But tonight I was reminded of one thing to be thankful for. One constant. Sure, I have several things to be thankful for, but this thing is something I take for granted. My dear Abby. My best friend. My maid of honor. My favorite. Though we are now 800 miles apart and hardly see each other throughout the year, she can still bring a smile to my face when I am at my lowest. She knows just what to say and always has a listening and understanding ear. I can be as selfish as stupid and as mean as I want with her and she never judges me. She has always been patient with me and has never let me down. I am so thankful for my dear friend Abby and I take her for granted far too often. Why do I so often feel the need to have other friends to satisfy me? I am so blessed with just one true and loyal friend. I have more wonderful friends as well, but none like my Abby. I am more blessed with her than with anyone else. And so many people never find their one true and best friend.

I am thankful for my Abby. I am so glad she is in my life. I am so glad our lives have gone the ways they have so that right now, tonight, she was there to cheer me up when nothing else would have been able to. She was there to make me feel loved simply by listening to me. We didn't have to say much or spend an hour talking, we just had to say enough.

Life has its ups and downs and I have my share of the downs. But I also have many many ups that I need to focus on. The downs will come but you can't have a down without first having an up. Positive. Time to think positive.